Hello, Again
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Good heaven's, it has been absolutely forever...
Life's taken a couple of twists and turns since then... major events including the worst day of my entire life, and some of the best.
Late september or so, I wake up to the sound of someone knocking on my window. Going to the window, I realize it's Kimball. So we start talking and he tells me that Meg tried to comit suicide tonight, and was currently in the hospital. I let Kimball inside and we spent the early morning talking about everything and feeling sick inside... I don't think I've been as scared in my entire life as I was that night. I remember going out to the car and just bawling our eyes out and praying as hard as we could that she'd somehow make it through. We managed to get a little sleep after we had heard that Meg made it back from the hospital and was at home. We managed to make plans to see her the next day, which was exactly what both of us needed. We managed to get maybe two hours of sleep, and then headed to her house about ten in the morning. Being able to see her again meant so much, and it was so great to be able to see her again, thinking that we might've never been able to again.
There's the very condensed version...
A bit between that night and now has gone on. Meg and I ended up together again and inbetween a few bumps along the way, sincerely were happy... I didn't know you could love someone so much...
Then we hit an unavoidable stumbling block.
I was working one weekend and I found out that Meg had kissed Kara's cousin Patrick. It was weired that I didn't really care, because I knew that she sincerely loved me, if anything it made us a bit stronger.
That Monday, I had a date with Jessie Jackman. It was an absolute blast to be able to see her again after it had been over a year since I'd last seen her. We went out and got ice cream at Cold Stone then went to Wingers. We talked to Kara there for a little bit and then headed to a park by the temple. There's this spot I found once upon a time that has a tree and a hill overlooking the sky, its like the ideal sunset watching spot. We sat there and talked for what seemed like forever, it was awesome to be able to talk to her again and just genuinely have a good time :). We made plans to have another date that friday or to somehow see each other before she left again, but that kinda fell through, which really sucks... kinda depressing that I probably wouldn't see her again for at least another year.
That Wednesday (the day before thanksgiving), Kimball comes over with Joey and asked if I wanted to go watch a movie with Amelia and some of her friends. I hadn't seen Amelia in over two years, so I was like 'sure, that'd be cool'. So we take off for Amelia's to watch the movie.
Amelia and I started talking and stuff throughout the course of the evening, and we were both flirting with each other. Then almost out of no where, we kissed.
That single event pretty much changed absolutely everything for me. I've been caught up in a battle with myself ever since then.
The next day I told Meg about what had happened the previous evening, and of course, she was hurt. Summed up, it was a mess, but it worked out.
Ever since then, Amelia and I have grown really close, spending countless evenings talking till 2 or 3 in the morning about absolutely everything and anything. It's crazy how things have turned out...
Since then all the problems have just gotten worse somehow, there really isn't anyplace for someone like me to be happy. I've sincerely tried but I'm slowly losing hope. I want to leave this place in the worst possible way but I don't know how. Every day is exactly the same and it seems like each one is worse then the next is. Katie was recently diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and had to spend a few days in the hospital. She's extremely strong, but its still hard for any one of us to see her go through this... then to make matters even better, the day she comes home from the hospital, I get into a car accident. Luckily no one was injured and it was a 'no fault' accident, but it was a hell of a day regardless.
Christmas was pretty good for everyone this year, but the day after christmas, we all got deathly ill with various cases of the flu, cough, and other fun filled diseases. I think the only person who didn't get sick was Katie ironically enough, but I guess God figured that Diabetes was enough for katie in one week :).
Dave and I spent a day attempting to record, didn't get a ton done because of one thing or another, I had to get two shots and a tuberculosis test for Japan. On my way out of the parking lot, some lady backed into my truck, so I got to spend a good hour or so filling out a police report and all this other garbage. Two accidents in one week...good heavens.
Everything's an absolute mess. I just wish it would sort itself out a whole lot sooner then it is so far. I miss being able to enjoy days and feel happy like I used to be able to. I just hope things will be alright again and I wish I knew how to do that. Gotta have faith in tomorrow though, right?
posted by Pyro128 @ 12:09 AM
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